Friday, December 26, 2008

Touchdown…

On the first day of Christmas, my true love gave to me
A totally insufficient dowry.

On the second day of Christmas, my true love gave to me
Two nosy in-laws and a totally insufficient dowry.

On the third day of Christmas, my true love gave to me
Three butter chickens
Two nosy in-laws and a totally insufficient dowry.

On the fourth day of Christmas, my true love gave to me
Four Hare Krsna's [Is that Indian?]
Three butter chickens
Two nosy in-laws and a totally insufficient dowry.

On the fifth day of Christmas, my true love gave to me
Five Indian games [I want to be the Cowboy]
Four Hare Krsna's
Three butter chickens
Two nosy in-laws and a totally insufficient dowry.

On the sixth day of Christmas, my true love gave to me
Six I.T. graduates
Five Indian games
Four Hare Krsna's
Three butter chickens
Two nosy in-laws and a totally insufficient dowry.

On the seventh day of Christmas, my true love gave to me
Seven eleven workers
Six I.T. graduates
Five Indian games
Four Hare Krsna's
Three butter chickens
Two nosy in-laws and a totally insufficient dowry.

On the eighth day of Christmas, my true love gave to me
Eight Bollywood films [I didn’t eat the baby, was the dingo ate the baby]
Seven eleven workers
Six I.T. graduates
Five Indian games
Four Hare Krsna's
Three butter chickens
Two nosy in-laws and a totally insufficient dowry.

On the ninth day of Christmas, my true love gave to me
Nine telemarketers [G'day mate, this is calling Jones, are you wanting greater car rates.]
Eight Bollywood films
Seven eleven workers
Six I.T. graduates
Five Indian games
Four Hare Krsna's
Three butter chickens
Two nosy in-laws and a totally insufficient dowry.

On the tenth day of Christmas, my true love gave to me
Ten minute yoga [Think the Lotus, feel the Lotus... drive the Lotus]
Nine telemarketers
Eight Bollywood films
Seven eleven workers
Six I.T. graduates
Five Indian games
Four Hare Krsna's
Three butter chickens
Two nosy in-laws and a totally insufficient dowry.

On the eleventh day of Christmas, my true love gave to me
Eleven syllable names [Peesaravanmuthu-double-decker-bus]
Ten minute yoga
Nine telemarketers
Eight Bollywood films
Seven eleven workers
Six I.T. graduates
Five Indian games
Four Hare Krsna's
Three butter chickens
Two nosy in-laws and a totally insufficient dowry.

On the twelth day of Christmas, my true love gave to me
Twelve cricket ball tamperers [I was simply correcting the stitching]
Eleven syllable names
Ten minute yoga
Nine telemarketers
Eight Bollywood films
Seven eleven workers
Six I.T. graduates
Five minutes of fame
Four Hare Krsna's
Three butter chickens
Two nosy in-laws and a totally insufficient dowry.

T o u c h d o w n . . .

Saturday, December 13, 2008

7 Secrets to Happiness

Why haven’t I know this before? No, strike that! I’m glad I know this now! There are just seven simple, yet contradictory secrets to having lasting happiness in your life. Here they are, with my thoughts about them.

1. You Need a Solid Core Group of Friends

I find myself most happy when I’m out with friends, going for movies or lunch, or playing games and sports with them. You do need friends and to socialize in order to be happy.

2. You Gotta Have Adventures

I learnt that to make life a bit more interesting, I need to take risks and not stay safe. I have taken some risks, some paid off well, while others created bad consequences. Nevertheless, without taking risks I would not have learnt many of the valuable lessons I have learnt.

Taking risks adds spice to your life. Just try it.

3. It’s Time to Toss Excess Stuff

This is a tough one. It says I need to get rid of stuff I don’t use anymore. Well, I do try to get rid of much stuff that are useless, sometimes I keep small things that may not be useful per se, but carry some value. That’s alright, I believe.

Even when talking about the mind, I need to forget about all the past bad experiences and move on, striving to create new good ones. If I dwell on the past and only find time to regret it, thinking “I could have not done it, I could have done something else”, I am going to waste my present time and in turn my future.

What has happened, has already happened. You can’t change the past.

4. A Balance of Busy and Dead Time Is Key

I’ve seen some people who are just busy busy busy all the time, that they can’t even stop a short while and chit chat a bit with me. I hate such kind of people. At the same time, having absolutely nothing to do kills me a lot. I try to keep myself fairly busy, but at the same time relax.

5. It’s Crucial to Give in to Temptation

This has nothing to do with the Christian view of “temptation” but rather means to treat yourself with something pleasurable once in a while. It’s good to be strict with yourself and control what your activities and life, but once in a while, just give in to temptation and indulge in a little pleasure. On the other hand, over-indulging is also harmful.

6. Liking Yourself Is Nonnegotiable

I can’t stress enough the need to like yourself. It’s the most important secret to being happy. I used to not like myself at all, but then I learnt to admire my good qualities and improve on them. It helps.

I always tell my friends who are unhappy with their physical appearance that it is important that they look in their mirror and tell themselves “I’m beautiful. Those who love me, will accept me just how beautiful I am.”

7. You Must Stop Mentally Browsing

Occasionally I have seen some people who choose something and then wonder if he should have chosen something else. I have had such moments myself, but I quickly dismiss them by reminding myself that I should be happy with myself and my choice. It may not be good to someone else, but it’s the best choice to myself. Why? Simply because I made it. And it makes me happy.

[Read this article to get in-depth explanation about the secrets.]

Friday, December 5, 2008

Dr. Fish Spa

This was so fun! My friend and I went to a fish spa today! It was our first time there and we had so much laughter while 100s of Garra Rufa (Nibble or Kangal) fishes were nibbling on our feet and legs. They were cleaning up our skin by eating all the dead cells.

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It’s a funny feeling when they just keep on sucking on your skin. Imagine, the people at the spa don’t have to feed the fish. They only have to get customers to put their legs in. Extra money!

You should try it. It’s at IMM Shopping Mall near Jurong East MRT, at Level 2, opposite a small toy shop. There are also others around in Singapore, like Tesco Plentong in Causeway and Katong Mall B2 in East Coast Road.

20 minutes @ $10
30 minutes @ $13

Hotline: 9696 5671 / 9145 2177

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Neat Little Trick

Pulling the tab off drink cans just got easier with a new method taught by my friend Lewis.

Usually, when I feel like getting the tab off the a drink can, I’d keep pulling it and pushing it back until it breaks off due to metal fatigue.

But Lewis has a new method. It’s faster and even makes a loud pop sound. You can entertain your friends with it!

  1. Pull open the drink can as usual and push the tab back.
  2. Now rotate the tab exactly 180 degrees (rotate half a round).
  3. Pull the tab again, just the same way as you would pull it to open the can.

Easy as 123

The difference is that the can’s opening is now on the opposite side. Since there is no opening for the tab to puncture, it pops off the centre joint, making a loud noise.

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A good cook and…

My friend and her friend agreed that “Guys want a good cook and a whore in bed.” True, I’d say. But they why don’t we guys put ads like “Wanted: Good Cook, and Whore in Bed”?

Guys don’t say what they really feel, but they strive hard to say what the girl wants to hear. And later on, when the girl finds out he had been lying (not being truthful) all along to keep her, things start to fall apart.

But if a guy does an experiment by being all so truthful about how poor, weak or stupid he is, it becomes clear that there is very little chance of finding any girl. So he pretends to be rich, strong and smart. I’m sure all guys agree.

Girls, would you rather guys be truthful than act in your love scenes as knights in shining armor?

Monday, December 1, 2008

Need a new place to stay

The only birthday gift I received so far was a one-month notice from my current landlord to vacate the premises.

I need to find a new room to stay, preferably near Temasek Polytechnic, Tampines, Singapore.

If anyone can help me out, maybe you have a room for me, or you know someone who might, please give me call. Thanks a lot, reader!

Friday, November 14, 2008

Lactose Intolerance Special Case

My right nose is Dutch Lady Strawberry lactose intolerant.

Why right nose? Because my left nose is just fine.

Why Dutch Lady? Because it never occurred with Marigold.

Why Strawberry? Because it never occurred with Chocolate.

Why lactose? Because it's milk, goddamnit!

Why intolerant? Because my right nose has been running for two days, non-stop. Someone help me catch him!

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Cacao? Who knew!

I've been so used to the spelling "cocoa" that I told my friend it's wrong to spell it as "cacao." But actually I was wrong. Even though cocoa is the most widespread spelling, the original spelling was cacao. Due to the widespread usage, both are used interchangeably and accepted as correct. However, linguists and chocolate experts would rather you stick to the more appropriate spelling according to the context of usage. Here's the breakdown:

Cacao: pronounced Ka-Kow. Refers to the tree, its pods and the beans inside.

Cocoa: pronounced Koh-Koh. Refers to two by-products of the cacao bean – cocoa powder and cocoa butter. Both are extracted from the bean when it is processed in the factory.

From: Cacao vs. Cocoa - Updating your Chocolate Vocabulary

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Hierarchy of Needs

I have this subject called Human Factors, which is something like a sociology and psychology class. There is an interesting topic in it called the Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs. Take a look:

Maslow's hierarchy of needs is often depicted as a pyramid consisting of five levels: the first lower level is being associated with Physiological needs, while the top levels are termed growth needs associated with psychological needs. Deficiency needs must be met first. Once these are met, seeking to satisfy growth needs drives personal growth. The higher needs in this hierarchy only come into focus when the lower needs in the pyramid are satisfied. Once an individual has moved upwards to the next level, needs in the lower level will no longer be prioritized. If a lower set of needs is no longer being met, the individual will temporarily re-prioritize those needs by focusing attention on the unfulfilled needs, but will not permanently regress to the lower level.

From the Wikipedia Article [4 November 2008, 14:55]

Thursday, October 30, 2008

The Man, The Horse, The Ox, and The Dog

One winter's day, during a severe storm, a Horse, an Ox, and a Dog came and begged for shelter in the house of a Man. He readily admitted them, and, as they were cold and wet, he lit a fire for their comfort: and he put oats before the Horse, and hay before the Ox, while he fed the Dog with the remains of his own dinner.

When the storm abated, and they were about to depart, they determined to show their gratitude in the following way. They divided the life of Man among them, and each endowed one part of it with the qualities which were peculiarly his own.

The Horse took youth, and hence young men are high-mettled and impatient of restraint; the Ox took middle age, and accordingly men in middle life are steady and hard-working; while the Dog took old age, which is the reason why old men are so often peevish and ill-tempered, and, like dogs, attached chiefly to those who look to their comfort, while they are disposed to snap at those who are unfamiliar or distasteful to them.

An Aesop's Fable from Aesop's Fables, Section 14 of 16.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Who is responsible?

Who is responsible to teach a human child how to live a life on his own, so that when he grows up to be an adult, he would live his life fearlessly and without ignorance? Is it the teachers at his school? Is it life itself? Or are all children expected to be born knowing how to live?

Many children, I feel, are just tossed into schools like banana chips tossed into a pot of hot oil. It is assumed by almost everybody that children only need to learn how to do something as they grow up. And that they only need to know how to make a living.

But never has anyone given a thought if it is necessary to teach a child how to live. It's almost considered a waste of time to touch on this vital issue in a child's life. I feel I was never taught how to live. I was let in the open like a newborn deserted by its mother

I went to schools and learnt Maths, Physics, Chemistry, Computers, Engineering, French. But no school and no teacher could teach me Life. Because no teacher can teach me that. No school can provide such a curriculum.

So tell me, who is responsible to provide me with the necessary training to live a live, when I reach the mature age of an adult? And whoever it is, why have they not provided such a training. Why have they deserted me when they knew that they had to teach me valuable lessons of life, that nobody else can teach me?

Thursday, October 9, 2008

3 more hours

I will start the four hours journey to Trivandrum, India in about 3 hours' time. I am hopeful that the next 10 days I'm going to stay in India would be another wonderful time in my life, and that nothing worthy of regret would occur during this time.

See you all on the 19th or 20th when I will be back. Take care.

Monday, October 6, 2008

Have you seen it?

Have you seen episode 7 of Who is Johnny X? It's so sweet, how he finds out it is his real wife after all, and how he cries upon the revelation. And then how they hug each other like long lost lovers. I cried. Dont tell anyone

Watch in the player above or watch in wide-screen HD here.

Side Note: Notice how crisp and clear a real X1 screen is? (You'll see that when you watch the wide-screen HD version. Ha! Beat that, Mr. Omnia! Eye-rolling

Saturday, October 4, 2008

Short Trip to India

I'm going to India next week. I'll be leaving Singapore on the 9th October in the evening/night. As usual I'm taking a SilkAir flight straight to Trivandrum. It's quite convenient as my parents can be just waiting for me outside the airport. Better than flying elsewhere and then traveling down to my home town.

Anyway I'll be returning to Singapore on the 19th of October in the morning. Also I'm shifting to Tampines to stay with my friend in a room there, sharing the room. I will do the shifting after I have returned from India.

Good night.

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Colour of My Aura - Indigo

Overview

Indigos are truth-tellers. They are quiet, alert, spiritual, inquisitive, patient, determined, guiltless, stubborn and honest. They can be blunt.

The reality of our world is a shifting, evolving, dynamic energy field. As part of this ecosystem, humanity is growing and developing. As the needs of the whole shift, changes need to be made in the parts that make up that whole. So it is with the auras. A new colour-Indigos emerged, with skills, talents; and physical characteristics significantly different from those of the other colours. At this time, most Indigos are still children or young adults. I see Indigo children as a new colour invested with new talents and abilities that will be necessary for our evolution. These children have unique characteristics for which we can only guess the purpose.

Parents of Indigo children have a special challenge-how to nurture and cultivate their unique children while at the same time helping them exist in the mainstream of contemporary society. The parents of some of these Indigo children will love and support their differences. Other Indigos will not be so lucky. In this chapter, I will be putting forth what I know intuitively about these children.

The significant thing about Indigos is that they have leadership capabilities unlike those we have heretofore experienced. They understand what it means to be a fully actualised human being without having been taught that concept.

The most difficult thing for an Indigo to develop is patience and forbearance. Because they seem to have already grasped what it means to be authentic, they have little tolerance for others who struggle with this issue. Indigos are not without compassion. However, their form of compassion is to give other human beings time and space enough to find their own answers, to come to their own resolutions.

Excerpts from other sections:

Physical Approach to Life

Indigos have a biochemical system that has differing needs and considerations than other aura colours. Acceptance of their more sensitive systems pays rich dividends for parents.

They have extremely sensitive neural systems. Excessive excitement or prolonged stimulation can cause them to withdraw into themselves.

They mate soul to soul rather than body-to-body. Sexuality is not an expression of masculinity or femininity, but rather the capacity of one human soul to interact with another soul. Sexual expression is a medium of communication so profound that sex for the purpose of physical release only is incomprehensible to an Indigo.

Because an Indigo is renewed spiritually as well as physically by each such experience, they seem to have lower sex drives, finding that fewer but more fulfilling experiences are preferable to many casual experiences.

Mental Approach to Life

They are bright and inquisitive, with an intelligence that cannot be measured by traditional psychological tests. Since these children seem to be born knowing everything, they are not asking for information but for verification of the knowledge they already have.

Independent without being arrogant, they are like solo molecules floating through the space of their reality. They are eager to learn and experience. However, Indigos are inherently unwilling to adapt to a standardized learning pattern.

Indigo children learn best when they are encouraged to follow their own interests. They have a capacity for pursuing topics deeply rather than skimming lightly over the surface. They resent teacher-imposed decisions as to what and how they should learn.

They need their own special place-their own room, a table, a corner of the family room-where they can keep their projects set up, without having to clean up after each work session.

These children will respond to the gentle reminder that it will be dinnertime in half an hour-better think about getting ready for dinner." This gives them an opportunity to mentally put a page marker on their thinking process.

Indigos see the whole pattern and all the individual piece's of the pattern at the same time. As a result, they sometimes have difficulty explaining their ideas and images to others. However, they will hammer their listener with data and examples until they have communicated their idea and the listener has expressed comprehension.

They are not arrogant and do not consider themselves brighter or more astute than their peers. They simply want the freedom, with a certain amount of guidance, to pursue their interests and to satisfy their need to know.

Indigos will remain cooperative as long as they are not patronized. They become incredibly stubborn when they feel put down and will cheerfully disrupt an entire classroom.

Emotional Approach to Life

On many levels, Indigos are never children at all, even though in their early years of development they can be very childlike. They seem more mature than others of the same age, reacting with sympathy and understanding to life's little dramas. Indigo children are more self-contained than other children, needing less interaction with family and peers.

They do well if given large amounts of time alone to pursue their own interests and activities. They have active imaginations and often talk to themselves, lost in another reality.

Going without meals, being deprived of privileges, giving up toys or activities-such punishments are of no consequence to an Indigo.

Promises are remembered. Indigos are not fooled by such vague words as "someday" and "soon." They want to know exactly which "someday" or precisely how "soon." Without meaning to nag they will remind you of your promises, which they see as a part of your responsibility to them. They do not hold grudges or resort to emotional blackmail.

Indigos are not demonstrative or overly affectionate. They seem to be self-contained. They are cautious with those to whom they give their affection. They can communicate openly and spontaneously with only a few people.

Indigos, at some deep level, understand that we are all interrelated as family, with no dividing lines and no areas of ownership or separation. Seeing so clearly this lack of distinctions, they feel the isolation of their knowing. They are gentle souls looking for a haven and understanding.

Spiritual Approach to Life

Spirituality as expressed by an Indigo is an example of what it would be like to live without the guilt and fear used by many religions to intimidate and manipulate.

To an Indigo, the Higher Power is a daily reality, not a theological concept. God is. Indigos see our striving after spirituality as posturing-much the way Christ saw the Pharisees.

Indigos find it easy to conform to institutionalised spiritual practices. They intuitively incorporate reverence and honour into their behaviour handling the spiritual objects with respect.

They are not bound by old traditions, habits, or belief systems. These children know that there is an order and a pattern to the universe that has little to do with the rules and regulations others make up. They are able to construct a holistic spirituality within themselves.

Leadership

Their power is in their indifference to accepted rewards and their refusal to be manipulated. Indigos will lead by making us rethink and reexamine our beliefs, values, and ways of doing things. By questioning standard practices they will begin to expose the lack of logic in much of what we do.

They are born with the knowledge that life is joyful and can remain so, not through avoiding pain, but by accepting it; not by being good, but by confronting lust, greed, and envy and integrating them into one's being.

Finances and Careers

Indigos will work because they enjoy the work, because it brings benefit and pleasure to themselves and others, and they feel useful doing it. If they find a job boring, or more work than they bargained for, they will simply quit.

Indigos are not lazy. To observe Indigos working on a project that interests them and absorbs their full attention is to see what tenacity really is. They simply know what they want and what they don't want.

This leaves Indigos in the precarious position of trying to figure out how to support themselves while doing what they enjoy.

Indigos find great satisfaction working with their hands in occupations that require them to pay attention to the process that is not intellectually demanding. They art intelligent, soft-spoken, hardworking, and dedicated employees.

For the future, as new needs and situations arise, Indigos will move into leadership positions because they have firsthand knowledge gained from experience in repairing today's technology.

Socializing

Indigos will always tell the truth, no matter how brutal it may seem to others. They are not governed by society's rules. They will not behave in a certain way simply because an adult promises them acceptance or love as a reward for doing so.

They will obey a rule because they agree with the moral premise behind it, and they will behave in a certain way because they want to be in a relationship where sharing and negotiating are required.

As they grow older, they find it more and more difficult to explain their differentness, and they choose friends and companions who accept them as they are. They do not have a lot of friends, preferring to be alone rather than to try to conform.

In an intimate relationship, they do not want to have to monitor their behaviour; therefore they choose mates who are sympathetic to their need to communicate soul-to-soul, and to their unwillingness to conform. The gentleness and emotional commitment of the Indigo are the rewards for those who are in a relationship with them.

What colour is your aura?
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Sunday, September 28, 2008

Will You Join Me to Help Burma

Saturday is the first anniversary of the crackdown on Buddhist monks' peaceful uprising in Burma. I wanted to do something to help them in their struggle for an end to military dictatorship in Burma.

Will you join me in signing an online petition to UN Secretary General Ban Ki-moon? The petition asks him to take immediate action to secure the release of all political prisoners in Burma, and also support a global ban on weapons sales to Burma's military regime.

As you may know, Burma is ruled by a brutal military dictatorship that uses torture, systematic rape, and political arrests to suppress a nonviolent democracy movement. Last year, a peaceful march lead by Buddhist Monks called the "Saffron Revolution" was violently crushed by the Burmese military. Nearly 2000 political prisoners remain in jail. The regime continues to use intimidate the movements leaders, including its legendary leader and Nobel Peace Prize recipient Aung San Suu Kyi.

I hope you will join me in helping to stop these abuses. A great organization -- the U.S. Campaign for Burma -- is leading this effort.

You can sign the petition by going here - http://uscampaignforburma.org/action/2008-petition.html

Thank You!

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

A little time off.

A little time off my daily routine. Just taking some time to post some rubbish. Because if I post something useful here, certain people who doesn't like me will read it, and criticize me with words that describe a person to be an amateur.

I don't understand, I have left them alone a long time ago, and I don't bother them anymore. But they still like to look at my blog, trying to find ways to disturb me. Great!

Okay, I'll pause blogging for a while due to this situation. I'll continue some other time, when the things settle and I lose all contact with those people totally. By then, even if they would be still reading my blog, they won't be able to do anything about it.

Peace, Arun.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

English, and it's various siblings.

We are all familiar with the English of the movies, which is American English, because most of the movies we watch are from Hollywood. English has become an universal language of communication, and is preferred by more and more countries everyday as the official language due to the transcending of language barriers it promises. Here is an account of how this beautiful yet funny language has been experienced by me, and my comments on it.

Have you watched any British English movies? Or have you talked to someone from England? The accent is dramatically different from the American version, and I have felt it a bit strange at first when one of my instructors, an Englishman, began his lessons. Oh, if you watch BBC, it really doesn't have the pure British accent, it has a rather mixed variety.

Then oh there's Singlish. Ya lah! No need grammar one. Talk cock anyhow also can!! I picked up Singlish very quickly once I started my course in Singapore, although I don't know many Malay, Hokkien or Mandarin terms. Although it has had it's advantages that I have been able to connect with Singaporeans better by communicating the way they do, there are also some drawbacks such as impairing my English speaking skills.

I just found out that there is no such word called "detoriate." It is not officially found in the Oxford dictionary. How did this 'word' come into being considered a good word to use in reports when it isn't even correct? English is a funny language.

What has irritated the most out of me is Manglish, which is not really English, but transliterating Malayalam (one of Indian languages) using the English alphabets. It means the sounds of that Indian language are expressed in writing using English letters. It is used by those stubborn Malayalees who refuse to talk in English to other Malayalees even in email or chat. They use Manglish when talking to others online, or on SMS.

Besides the fact that not all sounds of an Indian language can be fully expressed by using English alphabets, the use of Manglish also clearly shows the stubbornness of such people. They are not ready to embrace English as an effective, common and versatile mode of communication, but rather claim a non-existent patriotism by shying away from foreign languages. The Tamil version would be called Tanglish.

There was a message I heard on radio today that is worth mentioning here. Speaking Good English is not about following a culture's accent. That is, you don't need to follow the movies or the British. It is about speaking with correct grammar, in full sentences, clearly and audibly.

But we are living in a fast moving world, where communication only focuses on getting the main message across, but not on how it is presented. It is like two exit signs, one that simply has a single word "EXIT" and the other has a long sentence "If you wish to exit the building, or are required to exit the building during an emergency, please use the door below." Surely, the first sign is more desirable as just four capital letters would convey the exact same message as would the 22 words.

Nevertheless, we should remember that even though we are living in a fast-developing world, we are still social beings and crave for the company of one another. Communication is what creates bonds and friendships, and without communication there would be much chaos. Can an EXIT sign be your best friend?

Thursday, August 7, 2008

The Deck of Cards

Ace - There is only one God.
2 - The Bible is divided into two testaments.
3 - Trinity: Father, Son and Holy Spirit.
4 - The four saints: Matthew, Mark, Luke and John.
5 - The five wise virgins with the oil lamps.
6 - Six days of Creation.
7 - And on seventh day, God rested.
8 - Only eight people were spared from the Flood.
9 - The nine lepers who were healed, but never thanked.
10 - The Ten Commandments.
King - God is the Almighty King.
Queen - Blessed be the Virgin Mary.
Jack - The Devil.

Thanks to Mr. Dennis for this nice piece of information.

Update: Links to: the story and the song.

Thursday, July 24, 2008

I'm so vulnerable.

I'm so helpful and vulnerable to being used by people for their own benefits. I hate being so vulnerable. I hate it that it's in my nature to help those who need help.

But what hurts me more than this vulnerability is how some people pretend to like me, pretend to be my friends and by pretending, abuse my vulnerability.

And once they got what they need by using me, pretending to be my friends, they stop the pretence of being my friend, turn against me, avoid me, ignore me and even turn others against me.

But there will be a time when they will realize their mistake. There will be a time when they will remember how they used me. And they will regret it.

When they could have been my genuine friends, they didn't. But such opportunities do not strike them so often. It's them who lost something. I have nothing to lose.

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Blood Rose

 blood-rose

What is it that I'm not doing right? I don't know. Life just feels like a big blank slate on which I'm supposed to write with chalk my achievements. But such things feel worthless or meaningless when I see others enjoying life as something more than just a slate. To them, it's like a colourful animated world in four dimensions, not a flat black and white picture.

Yet why is it that some people like me are chosen to be on the dark side of luck, to be on the boring side of life, to live this short time that equals less than the blink of God's eyelids with no meaning or reason? Is there luck waiting in the future for me, to hit me with a massive amazing blow? One so huge that even I wouldn't be able to believe it? I wonder.

Well, all I can really do is nothing but wonder. And hope.

But does luck and fortune really exist? Some would deny the existence of luck and say things that can't be determined beforehand happen by chance, not luck.

Luck and chance are essentially the same thing - one a religious term, while the other is scientific. One would say Mahjongg is a game of luck, while to another, it's a game of chance.

Okay, why am I teaching you - whoever you are - English? I should be talking about how luck, or chance, is badly lacking in my life.

If I want something, I must work for it. Sometimes I want the wrong things, things I don't need, things I shouldn't want. Other times, I want the right things, but do the wrong work to get them. Where is the ultimate guidance I can ask for?

[Most of the above typed in phone while travelling today. The title and the picture has nothing to do with it.]

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Skipping a heartbeat...

Been a while since I blogged. I'm not sure what to write about.

Life has become less stressful now, with things to do, and new friends.

I've made one of my most important decisions, and it gives me a lot of relief from tension.

11th July is going to be the Director's List Ceremony, and I can't wait ^_^

Have you heard of the song Heartbeat by Scouting for Girls? Quite nice.

NoteEvery time that we meet, I skip a heartbeat.
I skip a heartbeat for you.Note

Click for original music video (could not be embedded above)

Monday, June 23, 2008

Communication Anchors Friendship

Drifting ships may hit icebergs. Here's a quote from an article I found:

Good communication is a necessity with those we value as friends. When you converse with others, you show personal interest in their feelings, and you encourage them to express their thoughts and emotions. If the conversation always centers on you, you might end up talking to yourself. Good communication requires being a good listener as well as the ability to express yourself. To have real friends, we must open up to others-let them know who we really are. At the same time we must allow them the same opportunity. Just be yourself. Only by being genuine can we enjoy a genuine friendship.

Read entire article: Communication And Friendship - © 2008 EzineArticles.com

PS: Iron Man, Spider-man and The Hulk

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Five simple rules to be happy

1. Free your heart from hatred - Forgive.

2. Free your mind from worries - Most never happens.

3. Live simply and appreciate what you have.

4. Give more.

5. Expect less from people but  more from God.

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Unbelievable

UPDATE: Information in the post below is not valid any more. I will not be studying an extra semester.

I can't believe I'm going to study an extra semester. I hope it turns out to be a blessing in disguise. And I hope a tuition grant would be awarded for the extra semester as well. It's just too much to afford without a grant.

Update: I just checked TP website [link] and confirmed that Tuition Grant is awarded to a maximum of 10 semesters. Yay!

But now I have no choice but to do an extra semester. I hope everything turns out well.

Yea if everything goes as planned, I will be finishing my diploma in 3 and a half years. Which means I would do my last semester in April-August 2009.

Friday, June 6, 2008

Chinese Years

My birth month is November 1986, making me a mix of these two?

Year Of The Tiger
1914, 1926, 1938, 1950, 1962, 1974, 1986, 1998, 2010

Tiger people are sensitive, given to deep thinking, capable of great sympathy. They can be extremely short-tempered, however [I was so before, but not anymore.]. Other people have great respect for them(?), but sometimes tiger people come into conflict with older people or those in authority [Not true, I click well with people of authority, most of the time]. sometimes Tiger people cannot make up their minds, which can result in a poor, hasty decision or a sound decision arrived at too late. They are suspicious of others, but they are courageous and powerful. Tigers are most compatible with Horses, Dragons, and Dogs.

Year Of The Rabbit
1915, 1927, 1939, 1951, 1963, 1975, 1987, 1999, 2011

People born in the Year of the Rabbit are articulate, talented, and ambitious. They are virtuous, reserved, and have excellent taste. Rabbit people are admired, trusted, and are often financially lucky. They are fond of gossip but are tactful and generally kind. Rabbit people seldom lose their temper. They are clever at business and being conscientious, never back out of a contract. They would make good gamblers for they have the uncanny gift of choosing the right thing [I always choose the wrong things, so that's not me]. However, they seldom gamble, as they are conservative and wise. They are most compatible with those born in the years of the Sheep, Pig, and Dog.

But then, I checked out the other years [link], many of the years have traits that I show. So we really can't stereotype a person based on the year or date he or she was born on.

Friday, May 23, 2008

Horrible, but justified

55740 is the highest death toll I could find on Google News today. That is a whole lot of people to die in a few days.

It's so horrible to see people die all of a sudden in huge numbers. I grieve for all the loss of lives, and spread my condolences to the next of kin and other survivors. I also join the millions of people mourning for the event.

But somehow, all these tsunami, earthquakes, global warming, and such horrible things slowly killing humankind off are justified because of the horrible things we do to the Earth. If you punch someone, there is only a very slim chance, he will ask you to punch him on the other side too.

Earth does not give you that chance. Humankind has been tapping into the resources of the Earth for the last hundreds and thousands of years, for their own development. There is definitely a threshold, a level of tolerance for anything and everything. We have long exceeded that threshold.

It seems like Earth would have been a lot better place to live, if humans were like any other animals, with no higher intelligence. Yes, we would all be naked, living in caves, eating fruits, possibly hunting animals. But we would not be driving cars, flying airplanes, going to school or even reading this blog on a computer. Just like any other animal, we would be living in jungles.

What's the advantage? The Earth's delicate balance would not have been disturbed over time by the advanced development of human beings. Earth would not have retaliated by slashing us with tsunami, earthquakes, floods and other horrible mass wipe out of human civilizations. Those people who died in such horrible events would have been living long fruitful lives.

It seems like that the end of the world as we know it, is nearing. The Earth is wiping its slate clean, slowly but surely. Soon, it will start all over again, repair itself, and will be back in balance. One thing I hope, Earth would not once again commit the mistake of creating (or evoluting) an intelligence higher than the spinal cord.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Do I love to prove you wrong?

I like to think. About science, about technology, about mathematics, about the accuracy and logic of the information provided to me. If something doesn't sound right, I will set out on a conquest to prove it wrong, or to prove myself wrong.

If it so happens that I have proved myself wrong, I do not take it as a blow and get worked up about it. I congratulate myself that I have learnt what my mistake is, and appreciate that I had the opportunity to find it out.

But sometimes I prove the information wrong. I find out what the correct information should be. And in the process, someone is proved wrong. Sometimes it's a lecturer, sometimes it's a fellow student, sometimes it's just a random person.

I do feel happy to have proved the information wrong, and even happier to provide the correct information. But I do not pride over the fact that I have proved someone wrong, because in reality, it is not that someone who is wrong, but the information. That someone is simply a carrier of the information and is therefore not blamed by me.

So please, if I ever say "you're wrong," what I really mean is "the information you carry is wrong, here's the correct information."

Friday, May 16, 2008

Time to write a blog post

But I don't know what to write about. Ok time to be random?

I'm reading Understanding Psychology by Robert S. Feldman for leisure. It's quite an interesting book, but I just started on the interesting parts of it. Did you know that Asians outperform U.S. students in education because Asian parents teach that anything is possible if you're willing to do hard work, while U.S. parents tell their children that intelligence as defined at birth determines their success?

Talking about reading, I think I'm starting to like reading for leisure. I used to read nothing, until my good friend introduced me to books that interested me, but was never found by me until I met her. For the first time I bought a book after I had finished reading every page of it. That's Body Language by Allan & Barbara. You should try it *thumbs up*

I had Pasta with chunky pasta sauce, and chocolate milk for dinner. And fruit cocktail in apple juice for dessert. Mmm tastes so good. So refreshing ^_^

I told my parents that they failed in being a good parent to me. (Yea that sounds horrible to some of you, but believe me, my childhood sucks.) Exact words: "A parent's job doesn't end with providing food, clothing and shelter. It only begins there. A parent can be, and should be, a friend who never leaves, a teacher who never stops teaching and a guide who never stops showing the way."

That's it for randomness now. Wish me luck for my love life. I'm gonna seriously start pushing myself ahead.

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Weekend of Pain (Serves 1)

Ingredients

1 Swollen Right Ankle
1 Handphone (mobile phone)
1 Sprain Bandage
2 Sprain Bandage Clips
1 Polyclinic Doctor
1 Friday
2 cups Excruciating Pain
1 kind Landlord
3 Panadols
1 Saturday
1 Voltex
1 Failing Round Tubelight
1 Sunday
1 Blog Post
2 Irritated Nostrils that cause sneezing
Diclofenac Sodium as needed
Famotidine for taste and aroma

Cooking Method

Ensure that right ankle is swelling up on Friday by walking around a lot, hoping the increasing pain will subside. Go have lunch outside school so that there is more walking than usual. By the end of evening, you have one swollen right ankle mixed with two cups of excruciating pain.

Keeping the excruciating pain mixed in the swollen ankle, try to reach home even though home seems as far away as heaven. Once reached (finally!), apply small amounts of Voltex on the ankle, and tie one sprain bandage around the swelling. Use one or two sprain bandage clips as needed.

After several repeated applications of Voltex with no desirable effect, try to go to sleep besides the excruciating pain that is already mixed. When this fails, use the handphone to call the kind landlord and ask for painkillers. Obtain Panadols and take two of them into your system.

On Saturday morning, get ready, take the remaining Panadol and go to the Polyclinic. Use both bus and taxi. Make appointment, wait 45 minutes and see the polyclinic doctor. Try to show off your failing memory skills by telling the last time you visited was in March, and be ashamed when he shows you on computer screen that it was January 16th 3.35 pm.

Obtain Diclofenac Sodium and Famotidine from pharmacy and return home in bus and taxi again. On the way, buy and eat food.

Mix two parts Diclofenac Sodium with one part Famotidine and take it. Apply more Voltex and reapply sprain bandage. Spend evening rewatching Prison Break Season 3. Also cook dinner, take another set of 2 parts Diclofenac Sodium and 1 part Famotidine, reapply Voltex and sprain bandage. Break one of the sprain bandage clips, making it useless.

Switch on and off the failing round tubelight and find out that it has finally failed. Try to go to sleep, but don't fall asleep until 4 in the morning, despite all the excruciating pain being fully absorbed and not evident anymore. Meanwhile play with handphone and send lame messages like "Which is cute?"

Wake up on Sunday morning, thinking it's 11 am, but find out it's only around 8.30 pm. Get up on the table, unscrew the failed round tubelight and remove it. Sneeze a few times during the process. Screw the tubelight cover back.

Start tagging others and then start writing a new blog post. Sneeze a few more times when you are writing it.

Serve hot.
You may also store in refrigerator for one year and reheat as needed.

Thursday, May 8, 2008

New and Improved

How can something be new, and be improved at the same time? Either it's something new, that was never there before. Or it's improved version of something that already existed.

Anyway, I'm improving my presentation skills, and I'm able to stand in front of whole class and talk without fear or nervousness. I'm able to not blindly read the slides, but explain to the class, looking in their eyes, what information I'm presenting. I'm able to get myself be fully involved in the presentation and enjoy the fact that I have the privilege to have people listening to me.

Yea I still suck according to standards required, but it's better than before ;)

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Lufthansa Technik

It's fun when it's not mindless filing, or boring lectures. Here's an analysis.

Workshop

What's Hot

  • Getting to mingle around with our classmates and make friends.
  • Getting to think and solve problems that we encounter.
  • Operating cool machines and stuff.
  • Sometimes, getting time to officially slack, due to unavailability of required materials (sorry the next batch will not enjoy that :P)
  • Getting to go home early if we finish our day's work early.
  • Getting a good work-out (is that really hot? well, maybe it is when we get a six-pack abs.)
  • Soon, we will be making a part of aircraft skin ^_^
  • Being able to listen to music while we do continuous mindless work. It helps me keep active.

What's Not

  • Mindless filing and hack-sawing of metal blocks or sheets.
  • Frustratingly stubborn metal which just does not wanna get corrected. (that is, if I want to make a surface flat, no matter what I try, it still remains curved.)
  • Hands, fingers and even legs would be aching at the end of the day.
  • Our lecturer wanting 100% perfection in what we do. Well, I just don't show him. If I can't make it perfect in a set time, I just give up at the almost-perfect condition and keep quiet ;) *shhh*
  • Lots of time taken to complete a work.
  • The knowledge that all these we are doing now is not graded and is simply for practice before our project.

Classroom

What's Hot

  • Lots of cool videos, not just documentaries like Nat Geo Air Crash Investigations, but also funny commercials and other comedy stuff. Our lecturer has a good sense of humour.
  • Learning cool things about aircraft maintenance.
  • Once again, getting to go home early if we finish our lesson early.
  • Being able to stay connected to Windows Live Messenger on my PDA and still listen to class without being distracted (that's personal)
  • Laughing at the jokes our lecturer cracks in the midst of boring lectures.
  • Listening to awesome stories he recalls from his experiences as a technician.
  • Having breaks almost every half an hour :D

What's Not

  • Listening to boring boring boring lecture notes being recited.
  • My fingers shivering due to the strong air-con. That's why I bought my shawl. Because only my fingers shiver, so a jacket is a complete no-no.

Saturday, April 19, 2008

I knew I loved you before I met you...

In the post "Secrets Exposed" I said:

You can't meet someone you love because you can't love someone before you meet him/her.

Let me explain further. There are two important differences between guys and girls.

1. Guys can (sometimes very very) easily separate sex and love, while girls find it hard to do so.
2. Guys tend to be blur about friendships, relationships and affection, while girls usually have a clear cut view. They know which guy is a friend, and which is more than that.

Both these truths I have learnt recently and I am trying to understand them and practice the girls' way (no that doesn't mean I'm becoming gay, if you thought that's the case, you probably wanna be gay yourself ;)

So what's the connection between these truths and the loving before meeting part? Well, before going into that, we should look at the connection between meeting and loving.

What does it mean to meet a person? Oh that's so simple. Just saying hi to someone you never knew before, and making small talk. Possibly getting to know them.

Then what does it mean to love a person? This is where things get a bit too complicated. Oh this is the part where people tend to talk about the four Greek loves, but I'm gonna cut the crap. You already know it.

Love, in the romance and BGR concept, means several things, ranging from knowing the other person more than anybody else would know him/her to spending lots of quality time together to both parties selflessly living lives for each other.

So if all these and many more things mean love, how can you love someone you never met before. You meet someone knew, you get to know him/her, then you request a relationship. If it happens, then the relationship blooms, love happens. If you have to love someone before you meet them, you gotta start rewinding time now.

Now, for the truths. The song's artists are two guys (Savage Garden). Truth number 2, guys tend to be blur. There maybe exceptions, but the rule still remains. Now the song is very nice and romantic. It's even a romantic thought to think you loved this special someone and knew she's out there before you met her.

But it doesn't happen for real. For starters, anyone who knew this someone is there out there, he would go find her. Why doesn't such a thing happen? Because he is only hoping that there is someone, but he doesn't know yet who that is.

If you say "I know I love you even though I haven't met you yet; whoever 'you' are." that's acceptable ;) Just remember, the guy/girl you meet tomorrow might or might not be the 'you'. Don't judge for yourself, you have to allow time to tell you.

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Stiff neck, with a dose of neck pain.

Ok I'm trying to hold my neck still as I'm typing this. I'm not feeling the best of best right now. Tomorrow is a big day as I start class. I wanted to get a new T-shirt, but just going to Bugis made my neck ache worse, and gave me headache. Oh well, mission aborted. Not in mood to go anywhere now.

It's been 24 days since I last blogged (questionnaire not counted). Every time I think about blogging, I don't know what to write.

This morning I had this weird dream which seems like my own cooked up version of "28 Weeks Later", with a little dose of "Lost." I think I have been watching way too much stuff over too little time.

I came back earlier than scheduled from India, and I still don't regret it. I don't know, I can't call that house there a home. There has always been communication problems with my parents, and there will always be. Oh don't ask, I don't even want to get started.

*applying some Voltex on my neck* I hope this gets better by tomorrow morning because I need to go to school. This whole LTT training is something new that has never been before in whole of Singapore, so I'm really looking forward to it, and I feel privileged to be in the first batch to attend it.

That's it. I think I'll just have something light for dinner and go to bed. Not staying online for long.

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Secrets Exposed

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
Is "right now" an age? Haha I'm kidding. Whatever age I'm settled with a good job and ready to take responsibilities of marriage, I will get married. Till then, let's play!

2. Have you given your first kiss away?
I want to be as sure as possible that my first kiss is stolen by someone who will live with me for a lifetime. (The answer is no.)

3. If you were to be stranded on a desert island, who are the 3 buddies you would take with you? Why?
Me, myself and my best friend, because they're the closest buddies I got.

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
Anywhere except here, where I am right now.

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
I don't remember my dreams.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Scientifically proven.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
My cool.

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Stop studying or working! Ok maybe 1 million is not enough to do that now, so maybe I will start taking life less seriously ;)

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
You can't meet someone you love because you can't love someone before you meet him/her.

10. What is your favorite quote?
Erm...

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
I wanna find someone with whom I totally connect, and who totally connects with me.

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
A person who is proud of himself / herself and doesn't like to admit his / her mistakes.

13. What is your ambition?
Just live life as it comes.

14. If you have a fault, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
I don't mind them pointing out my mistakes to me, but they must let me know and correct me in a loving and kind way, not in a harsh way or by ridiculing.

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Not money, not work.

16. Are you a shopaholic or not?
Nah, shopping gives me haemorrhage within half an hour. But sometimes I do shop. Usually it's quick.

17. Find a word to describe the person who tagged you.
She is amazing. We connect well.

18. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
Shyness.

19. Is there anything that you have done that makes you regret?
Lot of things. One of them is mistakenly accusing a girl of thinking I'm hitting on her. Yea I overreacted; what an idiot I am.

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Few more hours...

... and I will be flying, alone, sadly enough. And nobody is coming to send me off. Last time my group of friends sent me off, but this time they're all busy. I don't blame them. When they have schedules and are busy, of course they can't come. It's their right. But I feel like so sad that I'm going to the airport alone and leaving Singapore alone.

It reminds me of life somehow. We may have people around us, but in the end, it's us that remains, while all the people around us have gone away. But we can still hold hopes that some day, some new people would come around and meet us. It is a cycle. People moving in and out of our lives...

while a selected few would choose to stay. I haven't really found who would stay in my life besides my parents. That special someone with whom I would live the rest of my life. That she who would accompany me through the steps of time ahead. [Arun, you idiot... all you can think of is girl girl girl... shut up and talk about something else...]

Alright. Flight is at 8:05 pm today. It's 4:09 pm now, which gives around 4 more hours. I think I will shut down my computer and leave for the airport around 5 plus. Then I will find The Cocoa Trees or some other shop to buy more chocolates. It seems, my mom has a new friend and she wants to give her some chocolates from Singapore :P I'd like to meet this new kiddo as well.

I have a feeling this vacation would be a bit different. Not only about the kid, but I'm also not taking my laptop with me. It's an absolute addiction, trust me. I'd have to be pulled away from the computer to be more productive in life. And I think I will talk with my parents more.. *dreaded feeling* I hope!

Oh I just found out Ngee Ann Poly has a new course: The Art of Dating... I should take that. LOL! [Link 2]

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Dreams

How many of you have dreams regularly? I get dreams like almost every night. And all those dreams are in the morning, before I wake up. It's all so mixed and it's all very real. Real as in, something that can theoretically happen in real world. Many of them are created in figment of my imagination but all are heavily based of my past experiences with people.

Back in 2003, there was a male teacher in my (then) school. He was quite fearsome as he used to cane students very badly for not doing homework. Recently I watched an episode of CSI where a murdered professor was teaching the students about pain and torture, telling them that pain is necessary.

Mix them together and I just got a wild dream where this teacher who taught me in school was throwing a knife and a scissor at me, after asking me act like I'm weak and tired. It felt like he was trying to teach the people around me something by doing that.

That was quite scary. But that was just a miniscule part of the dream. There were many other parts like the science exhibition I had in my one school in 2002, was mixed with the playfulness of my friends and classmates from my another school where I studied in 2003-05.

My dreams are not vague or sketchy. They are vivid and full of details, which adds so much to the reality. There are a lot of details in it, even tiny ones. When I wake up, I'm so relieved that it was just a dream, but I'm also shocked by what happened because it feels like those things really happened.

What are your experiences with dreams? [Please comment to this post instead of tagging in the tagboard. Thank you]

Friday, February 15, 2008

Valentine's...

Wow it's been quite some time since I blogged. I didn't get any ideas to write about. Even now, I don't know what I'm going to write about.

Well.. let's talk about the speciality of yesterday, the Valentine's Day. What is Valentine's Day and how did it come about?

The origins of Valentine's Day rests on the martyrdom of eleven saints of Catholic Church. That's disturbing, because how did a day of memorial become a day of courtly love?

It turns out that the saints called Saint Valentine had no connection to the romantic overtones of this day. Neither did Lupercalia, a rite celebrated in Ancient Rome on Feb 15 which put an emphasis on fertility, but not romance.

A literature from 1382 by Geoffrey Chaucer...

For this was on seynt Volantynys day
Whan euery bryd comyth there to chese [choose] his make [mate].

... had a reference to Valentine's Day and the mating of birds. Although this is the earliest known reference connecting Valentine's Day with romance, it does not link the date Feb 14, as mid February is not a mating season for birds in England. What next?

Using the language of the law courts for the rituals of courtly love, a "High Court of Love" was established in Paris on Valentine's Day in 1400. The court dealt with love contracts, betrayals, and violence against women. Judges were selected by women on the basis of a poetry reading.

I guess this is the earliest event that truly solidified the link of Valentine's Day with romance and courtly love. Many other literatures followed about Valentine's Day.

The V-Day ended being a Catholic HolyDay and became a local or national holiday in 1969, when the Roman Calendar was revised.

In our times, it was popularised, as you can guess, by flourishing businesses such as jewellery, and a changing perspective on love. Everything put together, the romantic overtones of V-Day has no connection to it's origin or Saint Valentine.

Talking about perspective on love, research shows that marriage rates are declining. This means more and more people are not honouring the value of marriage bond, and are deeming it unnecessary for a loving couple.

First, it was sex that came out of marriage, now even love is coming out of marriage. In ancient times, it was culturally accepted to not have sex with a woman unless the man is married to her. Today's culture, especially American, demeans such a man who abstains from sex until marriage as being a sissy. Even though Asian cultures still respect this tradition, Westernisation is slowly changing it.

Even those who do marry, are no longer respecting the traditional terms of marriage bond. This bond is for life, till death do you part. Latest marriages are treated like wearing a coat. When the day is over, you take off the coat and the next day, you put on a new one. Divorces are given for the lamest of reasons. The only traditionally accepted reason for divorce is adultery. Now even the wife sitting on the husband's chair becomes a reason.

What's more fulfilling than finding the best girl within your reach, marrying her and committing yourself to her for life, then making love to her?

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Interested in getting future foretold?

Alright this is a plug for my friend, a close one. I'll just quote what she said on her blog. Name's Jasmine.

I'm doing tarot readings as my part time job. I mean, I'm quite good with tarot readings.. so you guys can ask me if you want them..

Read:
Tarot cards are not evil.
Tarot cards don't tell da future [as in, it's just a projected future. Can be changed depending on what you do next.]
Tarot cards are not dangerous.

I've got customers already =] so.. whether you want it or not depends on you..

Blessed be.

PS: you can call and tell me or email me at simpeijun89 (at) hotmail (dot) com [I only do local ones.. meaning for Singaporeans as of now]

Sunday, January 20, 2008

One day on crutches

It's been a while since I last updated, so I thought I'd do a quick post.

I've uploaded some new photos in my Friendster Profile, so do check them out.

Nothing much have been happening this past week because I've been home for like four days continuous, going out only for food. It's quite boring, I know. But I had to take rest.

Here is how it all went.

Last Saturday, I joined my friends at a condominium swimming pool. I got in the water, regardless of my inability to swim. (Surprising, huh?) I've never learnt to swim. I was walking and "running" in the water and at some point my right ankle twisted a bit, horizontally. It ached a bit, then I just wiggled it off.

Sunday, I was fine, Monday I was fine too.

Forward to Tuesday. In the morning when I woke up, I was experiencing slight pain on the right ankle. It wasn't too much, so I got ready in the afternoon and went to school. But it was raining heavily on my way to school and my pants got soaking wet. This added to the weight I had to bear. It was aching more, but I was still able to walk. I thought maybe it's because of the soaked pants, and it will be gone by the next day.

Wednesday, I woke up really early in the morning because I couldn't bear the pain on my right ankle. It has swollen up so much that I couldn't move my foot without screaming! [I didn't scream for real, but I was moaning though :P] With that early a wake up I would have surely been able to come to school on time. But I didn't because I could hardly walk. There were crutches in my house, so I asked the landlord if I can borrow them. So I used them and got to the Toa Payoh Polyclinic in the afternoon.

Waiting time in polyclinic is so long! The doctor looks at the computer screen more than she looks at the patient. So impersonal. In the end, their fees in total was $49.90! $19 is the minimum because I'm foreigner. Then there was X-ray, then medicine and other fees. I also got MC for three days, starting Wednesday. In total, I spent $72 inclusive of cab fare. I was forced to take taxi both ways. Taking bus was near impossible!

Oh, in the morning, I was installing Vista, but that's a story of it's own.

Thursday morning I woke up and found that the pain was 90% gone! It was unexpected. I thought I would have to use the crutches a day more, but I could put them away. I continued on my medication. The gel they gave has the stamp "POISON" on it! Never seen any medicine like that before. But it's fast acting. I spent the day watching CSI, going out only for food.

Friday and Saturday, I continued on medication, and spent the day watching more CSI, thanks to my friend. Only went out to get food. I also watched The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers towards the night, yesterday.

Sunday, it is today. I think I'll go out for food now, and come back and see if I have to do any assignments or continue CSI or movie. Or maybe I'll pack up and go roaming. Either of the two.

Friday, January 11, 2008

I believe in God, in science, in... Sunday supper.

From CSI Season 2 Episode 6.

Gil Grissom: We both have jobs that begin after the crime.
Father Powell: After the sin.
Gil Grissom: Some people would call that a career in futility.
Father Powell: Some call it a vocation.

Gil Grissom: A hundred years ago, we didn't have the technology for fingerprints. Fifteen years ago, we didn't have DNA. Hopefully one day, we'll have foolproof means by which to put the right man in jail in this case.
Father Powell: Someday we won't need jails.

Father Powell: I celebrate mass every Thursday night, 7 o' clock.
Gil Grissom: Thank you... but... no.
Father Powell: You don't believe?
Gil Grissom: In religion. I believe in God, in science, in... Sunday supper. I don't believe in rules that tell me how I should live.
Father Powell: Even if they're handed down by God?
Gil Grissom: How many crusades were fought in the name of God? How many people died because of... someone's religion.
Father Powell: Fanaticism, not religion.
Gil Grissom: Semantics. They're still dead. ... I'm sorry about Ben, Father.

[Ben is the character who was arrested for murder of two men, but later declared innocent.]

Father Powell: You still suffer like a Catholic. ... Light bulb goes out, other people fix it, get a new one. Light bulb goes out for the Catholic, he stands in the dark and says "What did I do wrong?"
Gil Grissom: That guilt's not in me anymore.

Tuesday, January 8, 2008

Sh*t I killed a snail!

I was walking, on my way home after alighting the bus. A family was coming towards me and the guy in the group was talking some nonsense, which I didn't really care about. Suddenly I heard: *SLUSH* and I realized I stepped on something slimy under my left foot. I just continued walking like nothing happened until the family was behind me. Then I turned back and looked. Looks like it's a snail... OMG NO! Not a snail! Poor thing. I just killed a poor snail which did nothing to me!! *guilty feeling*..

Hey wait a second! Who asked the snail to get under my foot in the first place? -_-"

Anyway, as soon as I reached home, I washed the soles of my shoes. Eww gross stuff >.< The thought still makes me wanna puke!

Friday, January 4, 2008

Life is as happy as we consider it to be.

Many of us live life just as it comes to us. We take all that is thrown at us by life, but don't really think about what can be done with what we get. Instead we just keep it in the shape how it originally is when we get it.

If you don't answer yes to even one of these questions, it doesn't mean you have a perfect life, but it does mean you're happier than an average person.

Do you wonder why you were born in this world? Do you wish you hadn't? Do you wish that your life would end and you would be freed of the misery you are in now? Do you wonder why people you love don't love you? Why they don't care about you, or even about themselves? Do you wonder why the world is never a better place for you? Do you think it is unfair that fate decides you should not be happy as you want yourself to be?

I can say a lot more questions, but you get the gist.

But if you're ready for a revelation, you can learn now that, you can decide when you want to be happy, and when you don't want to be. But we all think we suck at making the right choices so we let situations and circumstances make them for us. This is not a right attitude to have. Yes, we do make wrong choices, but that's not all the time. We learn from our wrong choices, and don't make them again.

But making a wrong choice is better than making no choice at all. And making the right choice is the best thing. If you just start making choices about your life, you'll learn that the decision making process is not as hard as it seems to be.

We are also conditioned from our childhood that choices are to be made by fate, situations, other people, Higher Power, etc. as from the beginning our parents made choices for us, and gave us what they thought is the best for us, without letting us voice our opinion. There are a few parents who train their children to make choices for themselves, but parents generally don't do it, considering children to be immature and unable to make right choices. I'm not saying this to blame any parents, but to remind you that when you become a parent yourself, you should train your child to make the right decision on his/her own.

Anyway that's just a side note. Wow this is a long post already. Let's get back to the main topic now. Life is as happy as you consider it to be. What does that mean?

When we have positive feelings and are happy about something, we nod our head while thinking or talking about it. But did you know that you can actually create positive feelings but intentionally nodding your head? That sounds impossible, but it will work. Guess that's why rockers nod their heads so much. Talking about that, we don't shake our head left and right when we listen to good music, do we? We nod it up and down.

So what I want to say is that you can make life happier than it seems to be, only if you impart happiness into it, instead of demanding happiness from it. Say, you're in a situation that's sad and making you unhappy. You're not getting any happiness from the situation, and you're not going to. But you already have happiness in you (know that?) and you can inject it into the situation.

How, you may ask. Simple. Don't get easily affected by the situation around you [quoting my friend] and don't let it change how happy you are. Instead, you can affect the situation by taking initiative to look at it with a positive view, and possibly change it if you can, and thus change how happy it is to you.

[Note that there are some situations where you cannot apply what I told you, like death of a loved one. In such situations just let yourself cry it out. It will heal with passage of time.]

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

Ang Mo Kio Countdown 2008

UPDATE: Videos moved to blip.tv [YouTube sucks in uploading!]

I went to the countdown party there (alone, sadly) and took a few pictures. Here they are: (click on thumbnails for bigger versions)

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I also took two videos:

Arrival of Guest of Honour Dr. Balaji Sadasivan. Senior Minister of State for Foreign Affairs and Information, Communications and the Arts. MP for Ang Mo Kio JRC.

... 5.. 4.. 3.. 2.. 1.. Happy New Year 2008!