Friday, January 30, 2009

Nightmares I live every Day – Screwed Up

I’m screwed up. And most of this person’s friends would agree to that statement. This person I wish to talk about here, is not the same person as in my previous episode of ‘Nightmares I live every Day’ series. It is a different person altogether.

As you have noticed already, I will not give you any details that reveal anything about this person. But if you know me well, you should know who this person is. Just like before, I once again screwed up a good friendship that could have been there. And I foolishly destroyed it, all in the name of my selfish pleasure.

I regret it and if I could go back in time, I would tell my past Arun what nightmare I am living with now, and what I wish to avoid. I have not done the right thing at all. More than any other bad event in my life, seeing this person makes me want what I will never have. An eraser than can rub away past mistakes and set things straight.

Regardless, I’m learning to let go of it as a mistake, a huge one indeed, one that I pay for whenever the person appears in front of my eyes. I’m learning my lesson from this mistake, and it’s the most important lesson I have ever learnt in my entire life. For this lesson, I want to give this person a big “Thank You.”

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Bellaelysium

That's the nick of my new friend Esther Peh. Well, actually we were acquaintances for three years of my diploma course, but only recently did I get a chance to know her better. Thanks to Facebook for that. I was really taken aback by the awesome and creative collection of cards hand-made by her. If I knew she's so good at card-making I would have bought all my greeting cards from her.

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Sunday, January 18, 2009

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Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Nightmares I live every Day – Friendship without Foundation

Some years ago, I developed a friendship with a person. We thought the friendship was going great, but in the end it all fell apart too fast. I tried to hold on to the friendship, but the more I tried, the more it slipped away. In the end it was completely lost and we are like enemies now. I don’t hate the person, but the person hates me to the core.

If I could go back in time and change the way our ex-friendship went, I will do it and make things better. I will make sure that the friendship has a foundation which it never had, before I start building it up. This was the mistake I did, I rushed things and tried to build the friendship without a foundation.

A 20-storey building has a 40-storey foundation that keeps it on the ground.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

What time is it?

FootballTime

It’s football time! –Tiger Lager Beer

[This poster is on the back of my room door.]

Oh btw, I don’t drink beer.

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Nightmares I live every Day – Birthday Slip

A long long time ago. I was in a hostel and it was my birthday. The hostel warden arranged a birthday cake and a celebration. My mom was also visiting the hostel and was with me. Everything was going on as usual, but when it was time to cut the cake… I forgot to blow the candles! I just cut the cake right-away… (pause) ‘Why isn’t anyone clapping?’

At first, I was really confused that the whole hall suddenly became silent. But instead of going insane about it, I just blew the candles – in the middle of cutting! Some of the hostel mates clapped, while others didn’t. Usually the whole hall claps, and loudly too. But not today.

A few moments later, I realized what I did wrong and was really embarrassed. In front of some 50 people I did something obviously wrong and everyone knew. But no-one talked about it, at all. Nobody ever mentioned about the slip. Usually, anything stupid I do, they all will have something to say about it. But not the birthday slip. Well I’m glad they never mentioned it ever again.

Why did this happen? I blame it on nobody guiding me. I’ve seen in movies and all that in situations like this, the mother or close friend or relative would guide the birthday boy saying “C’mon make a wish and blow the candles.” But the warden just gave me the knife and I really didn’t know what to do. It isn’t like I celebrate birthdays all the time!

This is the first time I’m telling anyone about this incident. I had kept this a secret for a long time. It’s time to let go. And you know, whenever I see a birthday cake or hear about a birthday celebration, I remember this embarrassing incident and live the horrors of it over again.